Being very honest here, I have to say that in the past, HOPE has been one of my least favorite words. Because of cancer, I was surrounded by hope, hope, hope.
And as someone who was terrified about what cancer meant to my future, every time I heard this word I would panic. My reaction was not positive. My response to the word was "yeah I HOPE I survive this." I got cards in the mail that told me to HOPE in Christ and I just felt sick. I was surrounded by pink ribbons and told HOPE for a Cure. I didn't want to "just hope." I WANTED reassurance!
expectation or the anticipation of obtaining your desire. Hope is expectation of your desire fulfilled. In my case...it is survival. Bethie changed my perspective that hope wasn't about "gee, maybe this will work." Hope isn't about maybe something will be good. It is not wishful thinking or positive visualization. It is to expect that God will answer and fulfill our desire. I still want reassurance, I still want to be healthy and know that I'm going to be here for my family. I am working on accepting all this. But I have the anticipation that God is working in me for my good. But the trust, the believing, or knowing that this battle is worth the pain...(or whatever it is you face) is a little slower for me to embrace. I still long for the assurance but I can now hear the word HOPE without wanting to hurt someone. I endeavor to accept the fullness of hope that whatever happens is to God's glory. I'm not there yet, but I'm closer than I was about 18/ 19 months ago.