Jason has encouraged us to run TOWARD chaos rather AWAY from it. This series of Chaos is of how I came to embrace and allow God to redeem the chaos within me.
Despite my political views on war, this a pretty powerful concept. It takes my breath away to apply it as Jason has...that it should be US the Righteous, running toward chaos. Taking Christ to the chaos, the ugly places, to the streets and the hurting, we can change the world for good. By running into the chaos, we can change our past. Perhaps not the events, but we can live unshackled by it. It no longer controls our actions or our fears.
We cannot address chaos without bringing it into the light and exposing it. How could our world change is it was the CHURCH rising up united and running into chaos. Instead of assuming someone is taking care of everybody's needs, we take up the banner and run into the mess ourselves. Taking care of each other, loving each other, lifting each other, comforting, sharing and defending. No more are we surrounded by the hopeless, the helpless, the wounded. We face the chaos and create order. Kind of amazing is it not?
In my own life I have come to realize that to create order from chaos, you must first get into the middle of the mess, into the scary and ugly parts. I grew up in a Christian home. My parents loved us and they took care of us. It can be argued with much conviction and evidence that they OVER protected us. There is no horror story hidden between the photo albums pages of my family. My parents made mistakes but they were done with the best intentions. They were not aware of all the implications or long range effects of some of their parenting choices.
The other early memory of my mom was that when I got up in the mornings, we could find her seated on the ugly blue/green sofa with the scratchy fabric. She held in her lap that fake green leather Living Bible and a Come Ye Apart devotional lesson book. I cherish that memory as she is now gone from us. Mom modeled a Godly Woman's legacy to leave to me and my three sisters.
My mother. She loved me. I know she did. She also knew that she made some mistakes. Things she didn't understand, things she simply misunderstood that led her to take decisions that would affect my life. A series of events that led me directly to chaos.
- favor or goodwill.
- manifestation of favor, especially by a superior: It was only through the dean's grace that I wasn't expelled from school. Synonyms: forgiveness, charity, mercifulness.
- mercy; clemency; pardon: He was saved by an act of grace from the governor. Synonyms: lenity, leniency, reprieve.