August 23, 2010
I can hardly breathe. Not because I can't but because it hurts so much. I have been caught unaware by this pain. Absolutely everything in my body hurts. What have I done to myself? What is happening?
Last night I had some mild pain and I think I was in bed by 8 pm. I felt great all weekend, then last night we stopped in at Walmart with grocery list. I suddenly got weak and soooo fatigued that I stopped the go-cart and actually leaned over to rest my head on the handle bar. I called Mr. Rosey on the cell phone and told him I needed help. He was there in a flash and one look at my face, he just told me to give him the grocery list. He said he'd finish picking up the items. I parked the cart near the front and waited. Some dear woman stopped to ask if I was okay. I told her yes, I was just over tired, but my husband was in the store finishing our shopping. I thanked her for her concern. I won't tell you how seldom that happens.
So back to this morning. I had an appointment to go to the clinic and get a "Neulasta" injection. Neulasta is a special injection that churns up your bone marrow and makes it produce new blood cells. Dr. Joe was conflicted on whether to give it to me, but opted to go ahead. I'm young *yay* in cancer standards, but I'm diabetic *boooo* so he decided I needed the injection. During the night I tossed and turned. I was so tired that I never really awoke fully, but Mr. R tells me I moaned nearly all night. The alarm went off, and I lurched to the bathroom. It was on the way around the corner that I realized my muscles were burning and felt heavy. I called out his name and he was there in a flash...I simply couldn't straighten up without every muscle screaming in pain.
Robin took a look at me and called Dr. Joe down to the clinic. He gave me the once over and then informed me that I had "won the lottery." Approximately 20% of people who take Taxotere will experience extreme muscle pain and ache. I was demonstrating how extreme it could be. He suggested I stop and play Powerball on my way to fill the several scripts of pain relievers, as I had hit the odds on this drug. He prescribed a couple drugs and told me if the pain remained as severe, to call and he'd order more. The narcotic pain meds knocked the pain levels down to a tolerable level but I was not pain free. By day 10 the muscle pain level dramatically decreased.
I hate Taxotere, but I hope it does it's job.
You never know what will happen next and next I will share about the wonderful effects of Neulasta and my very own personal miracle!